Blogger Slacker...

Ok so I am just so dang busy and suck at blogging. Uhhh. Between my 4 Pilates classes a week, keeping up with my two girls, doing photography shoots, cleaning my house, hanging out with my sis: OK the excuss could go on and on. But here is what has been going on:
1) I shot a wedding a few weekends ago. It was a long day. But I got some great pics I have been editing. My eyes were opened as I witnessed lots of drunk people. Which I am never around...lol. On a more positive note the Bride and groom were lovely. One of the most stunning brides too.
2) Evelyn has me worried lately. She has this crazy bump/bite on her leg. It started out with what seemed to be a dark round bruise, then started to look like a blood blister, then it got even bigger. I took her to the Urgent Care and they numbed her leg and drained it. Horribly sad experience but she was pretty brave.
 We started to give her an antibiotic and I took her back today because I didn't know if it was supposed to look worse and it did. Waste of time and $$ because the different nurse had no idea what it was or if it looked dangerous or anything. All she said was go to a different doc above what they know...ok that sounds professional?? So, I am still worried and just bought some new E-oil on it tonight.
3) Lyla is getting so big and grown up and is mis jibber-jabber. Tonight I told her to eat her dinner, and she said, no mom, I said yes, no mom I won't It went on and on. I love her. They both love babies and want me to have one:)
4) Our front room is almost how I want it. Pic to come soon. Trent just hung our tv in the corner. Last thing to make me very happy is the popcorn ceiling to come down.
5) I really love my life and feel so confident in my own skin. I love teaching Pilates and the results from it, doing photo shoots and being able to figure out any situation with ease, and being a mom and wife to amazing people. Heavenly Father really loves me and has a lot of trust in me too!!
6) Sometimes I feel face book has taken my life away. I love what it does for my Pilates/photography. But man I spend time on there. Oh well, I just love it too much.
7) We got new neighbors in the Cambell's house. I really nice couple with 2 kiddos. We love them already. Their boys are our kids ages and they have 7 horses and one pony. They said our girls can ride whenever. You should have heard Evelyn squeal!! Score:)
8) I think General Conference for my church gets better every single time. Man I love it. Life changing and it is just what I need to hear. So grateful for my testimony of my religion. Being a MORMON is so comforting.
9) I have no clothes to wear....really. they are either winter or too big. Time to go shopping:) Even though Trent doesn't believe me at all.
10) I borrowed the new Les Miserable movie and Trent lasted until the first word was sung and then he said I just can't do it. lol. I thought that would probably happen but it was worth a shot. I know him so well.
11)Another addition I have is a show called Call the Midwife. Oh boy it is that good. All true stories about midwives and births in the 1950's really fun to watch.
12) Ty is turning 20 this week, say what? My baby brother how is this? I love and miss him so much!!

Kylee's eye....amazing people still exist.

 I have some good news today. A few months ago I had the idea of raising money to help my little sis Kylee get a new prosthetic eye. I didn't really know how to do it, but that I needed to make it happen. The last time she got a new one was at the age of 12. And guess what, she needed a new one by the age of 18 and my parents had lots of other places for their money to go.
 First I came up with just having family donate, but it just wasn't going anywhere. Lets face it, raising a fam is pricey and after bills there is not much left over ya know. So, that wasn't very effective for getting that money. I talked to my two sisters and we came up with creating a facebook page for Kylee's Eye.
  My sister Elliah then heard from her hubby about this site called Fundrazr and how to raise the money. By setting up a campaign that took all day to link with my newly set up paypal account we put it out there TUES. We thought we would maybe get a few hundred dollars the first day or so. We had the deadline be June 30th because that is when Kylee will be moving to Pheonix, AZ. Her eye doctor is down there, so the timing would be perfect. Every hour we watched it grow and grow. We were blown away when it hit $500, then $1,000 by midnight last night it had been close to $2,000. In the morning we got a huge donation of $1,000 dollars, and about an hour later another $1,000. We were so overcome with joy and happiness for Kylee, only $500 to go. That only lasted a few more hours and then we had met our goal of raising $4,500 for Kylee to go get a new eye made for herself. These are really tough times and even giving $20 is huge. But we were so impressed with everyone willingness to give. And those two $1,000 donors really made it happen fast.
 It was the neatest experience for my family and I to do this for Kylee. One of the most life-changing experiences ever. People are good to those who need help. We have shed tears of joy the last few days and are so grateful to all of you amazing souls who donated. Even if you didn't know Kylee!!
 I can not wait to see her with her new eye come this summer. She is truly one of the most amazing people I have ever known, and has never let the fact that she only has one eye get in the way of her happiness in life She is a terrific mother/wife/sister/daughter. The Askeroth family was so lucky to keep her at age 3 and that they caught the cancer in time. We love you Kylee Michele!!

Heard Around The House....And Weekly Ten:) past due

LYLA:
Me: How old are you?
Lyla: 2 I'm 2!
Me: You will be 3 in 5 months...
Lyla: No I don't want to be 3 I want be 2!
Me: Ok
Lyla: How big you Mom?
Me: 28
Lyla: Wow that is really big Mom. How big Daddy?
Me: 27
Lyla: Oh wow wow that is yots. I am 2 and Eban is 4.

thats cool= dats cool
piglet= tiget
Me; Lyla we have to go in the car
Lyla; No I stay home I want to go home, I like home. Kicks and screams until I strap her into her seat.

EVELYN:
Evelyn: Mom, how come your the only mom in the whole world that doesn't know how to french braid? You need to learn how you know.
Me: Yes I know sweetie..lol
Evelyn: I never want to get a new mommy, would you be sad if I died mommy?
Me: Evelyn of course I would be horribly sad I love you. But, I know we will always be together no matter what happens:)

This Week:
- I put up new family pics that I am in love with. I am slowly adding color to my house, horray. Our new blinds should be here tomorrow and I can't wait to take down these curtains and open up the room more. I love to decorate but man pricey. I ordered more Annie Sloan Chalk paint and am turning an old dresser into an entertainment center.
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the past little while....

1) Trent and I actually got on a date....yes a date. It was spontaneous and exciting and well so much fun. We got Mekensie Bush from our ward, the girls new fav sitter and took off to Mesquite. We went to eat at the new Italian restaurant there. I was blown away by the amazing food, look, and service. Trent and I sat at a small table, I kinda felt like I was in a movie. Stepping up out to eating in Mesquite for sure. Then we ran to Walmart and parked in a parking lot and well, I wish I could say made out...maybe in the old days. But, we got an icecream and laughed at people walking by. We do however miss parking on BYU campus in Provo and being fully entertained by the students walking around there. Best. Entertainment. Ever!! Sometimes we miss Provo, not really as much as we thought we would. lol. We just know that we are really home now.
2) Trent send in his fourwheeler carb. got lost in the mail. Someone from the place he sent it too called him and took pics of the box. At first he thought someone stole it, but came to the conclusion that it fell out of a ripped box. N-E ways he was pretty bummed and had to order a new one. Shucks....
3) I am now addicted to Downton Abbey oh my gosh. What a show....minus a few parts in 2 episodes they could have easily left out, should have left out. I watched 3 seasons in 2 weeks.  I know it is shameful but I had to see all of them and get it out of my system and well, move on with my life. Until next season that is. lol.
4) Trent and I ordered us some new sofas.....OH BOY, never in my life did I think this day would come. We put our tax return to good use this year. Black, leather couched who have never been sat on anyone before are arriving new in their boxes tomorrow at our house. Happy freakin day!! We got them through one of Pilates friend's hubby. He sells furniture, he knows a lot and well, he got us an amazing deal. Goodbye crappy feather couch I have hated for a long long time now. Since we got it really. So much fluffing, having to de-feather the cushions. Having to vacuum you out no more. Onto new and better things:)
5) I got a steam cleaner for my carpet off of Amazon. Worth every penny that one. It has changed the look of my carpets in one day. You see we have light carpets and well they get really dirty, and now they are not so dirty.
6) Lyla has become a little more interested in potty training but, she still has only gone potty once at least the pullups will make her sit on the toilet. progress slowly, but surely.
7) Evelyn has been very busy and also gets bored easily. She loves primary and the songs, ballet/tap class, and preschool. I love her thirst for life in general. How can she be going to kindergarten next year......makes me sad/happy.
8) I was once again sick this week. I know nothing new. This week I got the flu....but managed to keep myself from not throwing up from taking some natural drops called stomach comfort and I love that stuff.
9) Feb. has been a tough month...I have to bring it up once again. The 3rd baby not being here. The song that I listen to that gets me through it is: Katherine Nelson -What's Mine Is Yours, it really speaks to me. Anyone who has had a miscarriage or lost a child needs to hear it. I can on the bright side look at how much I have accomplished in other aspects of my life. Such as really grown as a photographer and getting my name more out there. And building up my Pilates class to where I have always wanted it to be. Really getting close with my two girls and being able to give a lot of attention to them. I feel Evelyn got a little jipped because I have had lots of time with Lyla as the baby.
10) The decorations in my house are blah blah blah. And I am sick sick sick of them. I have lots of new plans for my family/living/kitchen room. My lovely sister Kylee is going to help me decorate. Hooray.

**I have been horrible with posting photos. I usually just do Instagram and post to facebook. So lame of me, being a photographer and all. So here are a few.

Weekly TEn

1) I have been sick again, yes s-i-c-k. I never get this sick in a year. It is going around bad around this valley and everyone has been down for weeks. Yuck, the worst part is you think your better and then it hits you again.
2) Last week there were two days that made me think. One, was Feb. 3rd, which is the day one of my best friends ever Nicole May passes away, 11 years ago. And it was on a Sunday again. It just took me back to that day and being in Young Woman's and Bishop telling us the news and us all falling off of our chairs bawling. Nicole I hope you know how much you were loved and are still loved. Evelyn drew you a photo of you, me, and Jesus, we framed it and put it at your grave. Evelyn even feels a love for you. She is always asking about Micole, so sweet. I have been explaining the plan of salvation to her.
Two days after on the 5th I was reminded that I was due with my 3rd baby....and alas I have no baby. The crazy part was the actual day wasn't too bad. I think I was numbed from the build up to the day. This trial has changed me for the better.
3) I ordered me the Ninja Kitchen System, my mom has one and I loved it. It is great for quick smoothies, yum. Money well spent.
4) I ordered a new Zella Gym Bag and new reversible Zella capris as well. I am becoming a huge Zella fan I'm afraid, which puts a dent in your wallet:).
5) I ordered a Hoover steam vac that I am stoked about, our carpets are not what they were when we moved in.
6) I have been on the hunt for a new sofa, and loveseat, it is a hard decision. Hope Trent and I can get some this week. I am ready to burn our current ones.
7) I added a fourth class for Pilates last week and am very happy I did. It makes me know I get another workout in for the week. I had a lot of peeps requesting it. I finally feel like my Pilates class is where I want it to be. I love the turnout I get and how much people love it. I also love changing lives, and being a part of the community!!
8) I am now addicted to Downton Abbey....oh man it is good. Minus episode one season one....why do they throw nasty stuff in the first episode uhh hate hate. I just finished the first season on Netflix and now I have no way of watching the second season. My mom has it but only on blue ray, I need a blue ray player.
9) Evelyn is enjoying ballet/tap so much. She had an accident last week though, but the teacher blamed it on herself. She fogot Evelyn needed to go. poor thing. She is also getting so good with her letters and numbers. She is trying to read words too. Awesome I love the preschool I take her too. She will be so ready for kindergarten. She gave a talk in church and volunteered to say the closing prayer. I missed both of them from being sick. But I am so proud of her. She is a great big sister to Lyla. They are great friends.
10) Lyla is talking so much. She says "YOu see that?", "tankyou mom". She likes to play in her bed at night now. And still refuses to sit on the potty or think about potty training. oh well, when she is ready.

Weekly Ten For This Leavitt Household....

1)Satan tells us to do bad things.....Evelyn's new song she made up...ha ha
2)We had the craziest mouse hunt this week. Thurs. I took Evelyn to her first ballet class, more on that later. I took Lyla home to be with Trent so I could go back and get Evelyn and put a show on for Lyla to watch. I sat on the couch by Lyla Trent was standing by us. I see something out of the corner of my eye....MOUSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! It runs under our TV to our couch, back to our tv, to our refrigerator, down the hall to the exercise room, to our bedroom. Trent and I are on our hands and knees trying to catch/smash the darn thing. Of which I refused to do...stomp on it....eeewww. So we corner it into our closet. I called my neighbor Sandy Thomas she has a cat and my parents claim that if you bring a cat into a mouse filled house they kill it fast. However her cat refused to come into our house not knowing us. I wasn't too upset because I knew bringing a cat in would cause allergies. Trent is looking at it with the flashlight and tells me to find a bb gun. I call my neighbors the Schouten's amd book I mean....sprint over there. Grab some guns and sprint back. My mom was nice enough to go pick up Evelyn from ballet for me. Trent shoots the darn thing and injures it. It runs back and forth through the back of the closet. and back where Trent can take another shot. Under my shoe rack. eeewww. He said it was licking it's wound. Then it runs again where we can see it and disapears. Yuck the next part is gross....It was hiding in my hanging clothes....yucky isn't it. I left Trent to hunt down the injured mouse while tending to the kiddos. He said he was hitting the clothes with a yardstick in frustration, and he hit it so hard with the clothes that the stick broke. That is when the mouse fell down and he then hit it with the flashlight and then stomped on it. I was happy to be out of the room at this point. He yelled for me and said. "Tara, I got him". I need you to get me something to hit him with in case he is still alive. So I handed hime a metal tin and shut the door. He is dead, now I need something to clean up the blood spots.....ewwwwwww. And the fact that he was in my clothes was so sick to me. Time to wash them now. That mouse gave me such an adreneline rush that night...the most I have had in a while.
3)On my way our the door Friday Evelyn was walking close behind me and I didn't see her. I hit her with the door right smack in the face giving her a bloody lip and I felt very crappy. Poor thing. I think she forgave me....
4)Trent fixed up his families old Firebird that his sister got in a wreck with. He had been trying to find a buyer and we finally found one. My Daddy, him and my mom want a car that my dad can drive to and from work. Nothing special. It is just hard having one car ya know. We are so happy they want it.
5)Evelyn enjoyed her first ever ballet/tap class. Taught by Erin Cornwall, I was a little hesitant to start her in something at this age. But, I am glad I did now, she loves it so much. I can't wait to go back this Sat. Erin is a great teacher and awesome with kids. Plus she gets to do it with her best friend Macy Terril.
6)My Pilates class has taken off this week and I have had so many new people. What a fun week. I love when a newbie loves it and gets a great workout. Oh how I love to be a fitness instructor.
7)Trent is still patiently waiting for his Mustang to get painted and they are taking their dandy time. Poor guy;( It is going to be so awesome when it gets finished.
8)I did a very fun photo shoot today at the Old Simplot building and it was lots of fun. 3 kids and I am having a blast editing them. I am also getting a lot of props now. I am addicted to props.
9)Lyla, Evelyn, and I all got little colds this week. It was not very fun. But luckily they are pretty mild ones. Trent never gets sick.
10)This morning Trent told me that he has lost 8 lbs in 2 weeks. Jusr from eating less and feeding himself more healthy options. I am one proud wifey;) Now he wants to get in our exercise room and bulk up again;)

Confession Time. . . .A little negative sorry....

1) Confession....I am lazy and don't take the time to blog. I feel like no one reads my blog....so ya. Well, I have to keep telling myself my posts are for my kids in the future.
2) Confession...I feel like I don't measure up sometimes...well a lot. As a mother/wife/homemaker/. Being a mom is well hard. But that is life. I can't keep up on anything laundry, dishes, dusting...if your a mom I know I am just telling you stuff you already know.
3) Confession....DEATH scares me!!Two people from our valley died this week, they were both male. Really sad for their families. Life is short. Sometimes I tell myself to live differently ya know more in the moment of life. Hope to accomplish this more often:)
4) Confession....EVERYTHING is bothering me in my house lately, the bland colors of my front room, my pathetic couch I HATE to sit on. I need to paint the girls closets. Tax returns please come soon so I can throw my sectional out the window. My popcorn ceiling...oh boy how I hate it. Trying to decide if I should just man up and remove it myself or hire someone, or try to cover it up with some boards....uhh I just can't leave it. Must. change. soon!!
5) Confession....I wish more people were willing to try out my Pilates class. I know it is not as fun as Zumba and you work hard but it can still be fun. I am grateful for all who come and absolutely love it. That is all.
Confession....I wish I could do more photography jobs. I really love it too. I have a photography love, and a Pilates love and enjoy both so much. But can't seem to give up either one.
Confession...I want a BABY....a baby is on my mind. Particularly a BOY, and name him Hudson Todd Leavitt. I dream about him. Hudson is getting more and more popular ya know. And when I hear someone who I know name their boy that it well breaks my heart. Somehow I feel a little boy would round out our family nicely!**But, if I had another girl I would know it was my Heavenly Fathers plan too.  It is hard not being pregnant when I am so close to when I was due with my 3rd baby. Feb. 5th is going to be here fast and it will be a very bitter sweet day for me. I know that having a 3rd will change my life and ruin my very toned body and make me depressed about my body for months and force me to stop teaching Pilates for some time.  And while I feel scared to go through it all again....I crave it so badly as well. It is time, it was time last June when I lost my baby so it really is now more than ever. I feel like I have had a great journey through it all and really respect all those woman who have miscarriages and try and try month after month to get prego with no luck. I can tell you when I am prego again I won't be telling for a while. So, if I every look bloated or prego please don't ask. I will tell when I am ready :) Ahh feels better to blog out my feelings. I am never this negative. Just feels good to get out my feelings ya know.
6) Confession... Evelyn and I clash big time lately. She loves talking back and well I don't love her doing it. I have to watch myself and not really lose it . But, I can't believe some of the stuff she says sometimes. She never ever wants to just sit and relax. and when Lyla is sleeping I want to relax, and she gets so mad. She has a sweet side too don't get me wrong.
7) Confession..... Lyla refuses to leave the house, she loves home. Which is fine however I need to do stuff in my life. So, usually I drag her out of the house crying. And she is into the I want to do everything myself stage.She wants nothing to do with potty training....oh well I am not gonna fight her about it right now.
8)Confession..... I would love to not have any cat/dog/animal allergies. I am
getting tired of getting/having allergies and not being able to visit with people that I love. It is so frustrating. So, if  I ever leave your house abruptly and you have animals inside please don't take it personal. I pray that my girls are not allergic too. Trying to recover from 2 visits 2 days in a row....it's rough and my body isn't so forgiving.
9) Confession....I can not get my butt into bed before 11 every night. I always find some dumb thing to occupy me. It is rather lame. I think I just love being able to think about my life in the quiet.
10) I wish I had more will power with food. I eat chocolate a lot. The End.