Two Years Ago. . .

This is a photo of my OBGYN and infertility specialist Dr. Chalmer's. I love him and the friendship I have with him. He is a great guy who truly tries to help his patients. I send him emails all the time.

June this year marks 2 years since my miscarriage and going through this journey of infertility I never imagined I would be going through. But that is life ehh? I have been super emotional and to tell you the truth fed up with most of it.
The more I try the more off my body gets to making a baby. I am getting numb to the whole situation and feel so blessed to have my two girls. I am really lucky to be a mother. I love my two girls and they help me to love more and more everyday.
If I have learned anything through this trial it has to be the ability to love more and understand how hard life is for not just me but everyone around me. Heavenly Father is in control not me. He doesn't punish us by giving us trials He wants to see us grow and become more like Him.
Trent and I are becoming more used to the idea we may just be a family of four and that is ok. Or we may have to wait longer to have another baby or it may never come. Life is good and we will carry on:)

Girls Camp . . .

I headed to Girls Camp up at Kolob this week with my ward. I couldn't leave my family for 5 days so I just went up Thurs-Sat. It was pretty dang fun, I don't think I have laughed that hard in a long time.
We had a tire rolling down the hill several times and almost peeing my pants. The girls were so sweet and wonderful, I got to know the leaders better and we all are a hoot together.
I won the push up contest we did. . . They started it a few days before I got there and then challenged me to do it, I accepted and did a whopping 63!! I was pretty pumped since I even beat a Priesthood leader we had. ha ha
I really thought about and missed Nicole May since the last time I was in Kolob she was there with her beautiful smile and making us all laugh. I could feel her there with me.
I helped belay for rock climbing and that was pretty scary, and hard to follow. Then I rock climbed the tallest wall they had!! It was hard I slipped and fell off and flew to the side so I didn't really know how to get back on. but I did. And made it to the top. So, dang cool. I also went repelling and remembered that I like climbing better. lol.
Testimony meeting was great and then we were ready to get home...my favorite year at camp so far!!

Lately:

1) Paid off our 2007 Yukon Denali. Feels so good. Of course we have had to replace the windshield and have had a side piece come off. It is like the car is mocking us! We sacrificed stuff to pay large amounts off. But it worked out in our favor and we got it done a lot faster.
2) We headed down to AZ the week after Ty got home to see Kylee's baby Penny get blessed. And see great Grandma Leslie and great Grandpa Ron. The trip seemed ok until we missed a turn off and but quickly turned around again. Then Trent and I were just saying how lucky we were that our kids never got car sick. Pretty soon after that Lyla started coughing and puked everywhere.. Trent started catching it in his hands (braver than me) while I jerked the car off the side of the road. It was real mess, and made the car smell lovely. I slept horrible the 2 nights we were there too. But there were good parts about the trip. Trent and I decided we could live I Surprise AZ. It is really nice there. My Grandma wasn't feeling great so we didn't get a chance to visit her at her house. Just at Kylee's on Sunday. Kylee had a bday party for Maddox at a park and it was scorching hot!! But we still managed to have a good time. We also got to visit with our good friends Chase and Nicole Woods. They live close to Surprise. They have amazing house and pool. It made me rethink our house in the future.
We have been having so much fun with Ty home. He just left for EFY for 7 weeks.
I am hiding out in my room right now. Evelyn refused to try what I made for dinner and has been throwing a fit about it for the last 2 hours. Hanging all over me...so I took a time out for myself while she screamed and pounded on my bedroom door. Yep...fun stuff.
I am heading to girls camp this week for a few days, I am excited it should be lots of fun.
Evelyn graduated from kindergarten this past week. And we went and watched the cutest performance ever!! Love her so much...when she isn't throwing a fit for hours on end. Lol I will be sad for full time school next year though!